on grocery shopping with your lover by somewhither, literature
Literature
on grocery shopping with your lover
she picks out
the perfect ear of corn.
holds it up for me to see,
peeling back the husk
to look for rot.
this is our sunday, and her hands
circle my lower back
in simple rings. i kiss her
on the shoulder
and think:
this is our wedding day.
she picks out
the perfect ear of corn
like she could have done
for the rest of our lives.
holding it up for me to see,
there is no rot to find.
no decay in us, only terrible,
murderous youth.
in her husking hands
i see our lives sprawled out
like mountain ranges, two separate
Everests, only begun
to be shucked.
i know from her gardening hands
this will be our only sunday.
she picks out
th
my love is chameleon
sometimes
when it must change shape
to survive. afraid
it may kill itself
in its sleep--so sharp,
so demanding. sometimes
it becomes softer, rounder
simply to survive itself.
sometimes it doesn't do
to be so murderous.
now i ask my love
to go to sleep instead. please
don't change your shape
to slip out from under
your grief. please,
curl up with your dagger
teeth, and breathe deep
until you don't feel
the winter anymore.
better dream
than dead. better still
than gone. i have never been
one for hibernation,
no, but i would give much
to keep you. to preserve
you, a sleeper
encased in ice,
and in doing so
save m
bodies(the only way to go) by somewhither, literature
Literature
bodies(the only way to go)
limbs like tree trunks,
silver birches powerful
rippling--i could be
that softly combing
breeze if you would
let me.
what would it be
to grip those reaching
roots, struck deep
into soil, earthiness,
sun-stuff. what would it
be, i am wondering
and when you catch me
looking i try to seem
sincere:
just for science. mere
curiosity, but look here
at the hot arching
fever, the way i rise up
like a stove top,
i want, i want,
i want.
i go to bed
hungry, and wake up
the same. heart full,
hands cruel and
quenchless and your thighs:
o god, mountain ranges. i want
to climb them. my hands cry,
give me canyons. give me
give. my body te
right now i am waiting
for my life to begin. i imagine
it will approach with the slow
clicking of stilettos down a dim
hallway,
clickety clack, hooves roaring
down cobblestone, chest heaving
with lust and lung. i imagine this
but truly i have no idea what life
sounds like. sometimes i hear it,
i think, in the pulling of the engine
down the highway, the relentless
Morse of a heartbeat,
and the ocean, punishing always
that wincing shore. sometimes
i participate in this fierceness
of living, giving and taking
with the rest. other times,
i listen and pretend
it is enough. it counts. and i sit
with my legs crossed, closed,
while the
the summer, counting down.
each morning means less
meat, fewer kisses open
mouthed, and a choked leaving
looming ugly and wolfish
like a death.
i am trying so hard
to love you in the present.
i know you are not a bomb
or a landmine, i know
you are not going to kill me
on purpose. still,
the soft humidity
of your breathing: murder. the freckles
bouncing in your shoulders:
ruin. i am run through
with the soft suggestion
of your heart within your chest,
feathered and flickering.
a candle, a precious fire. the beat
of it is my own brutal beating;
you are my quiet bloodshed,
my gentle misery. i walk this home
you have built so slow in
dear sweet love, my Florida by somewhither, literature
Literature
dear sweet love, my Florida
slick, slick, slick.
the salted yolk of the sun,
the sea, singing
yes, yes, yes.
and i think to myself:
could i have arrived
at a better place than this?
the Vitamin C and D state,
place of slow freckling,
marshed breath like diving,
climbing, pulling back
every skin to find the nutrients
beneath. shoes and shirts,
no service. and the sun always,
always sweating, panting
to keep itself cool enough
to stick around. slick,
slick, slick
skin burning from the inside,
smelling like a sweetness,
shedding itself and forgetting
what it was called before this,
this, home of breezes
and punctual rains, home of
homecomings, though i am new
as
Please, said the straight girl by somewhither, literature
Literature
Please, said the straight girl
If you were a boy, she said
one day with her hands drawn
like shades and her eyes glinting
like a secret, If you
were a boy i would love nothing better
than to fuck you in public
with the lights on.
In front of daycare centers,
the dinosaur exhibit
at the city museum;
i would fuck you especially
in church,
in front of God and everyone.
If i were a boy,
she wanted me to know,
letting my own implications
strangle me with their one syllable
hands. perhaps
she could have loved me then
for what i was. instead
she loved me like a door,
a vessel to take her to capitalized
Pride, secret agent fingerings,
Where the hell did i leave
my und
god,
the simple morningness of it.
the first shaken breath
tumbling from the waking canopies
of your lungs. come to me,
open. come to me,
start. i need you now,
in this one sunrise, to give me
all the mornings we will never have.
each rising i have made
without you, i will forget them.
please,
breathe the morning
into me and simulate the rest
of our lives. the ones we will not live
together. i may wake up
to many faces through the years
and the years,
but not yours. please.
when you feel the world
coming in today,
we can be old together.
we can be newly wed, softly
drawn, with our lives a mountain range
before us. wake up with m
the cast of her eyes is a metaphor
for power. power,
a metaphor for sex. together,
we are two raging unsubtleties:
mouths spread, breath all flood
and leap. she is radiation,
is wanting, is eruption.
she comes to me easy and fluid
like a dream and drags
across every edge of the world.
say, slick. say,
give. roar.
she says she has forgotten
the definition of the sharp
tyrannical word, stop.
perhaps she knew it once
and perhaps not. she says this
while her mouth is left open
to let the rush in and her hands,
her hands. heated and
voracious. desirous of everything,
she sips from the sun
with cupped palms, then paints me
with th
on grocery shopping with your lover by somewhither, literature
Literature
on grocery shopping with your lover
she picks out
the perfect ear of corn.
holds it up for me to see,
peeling back the husk
to look for rot.
this is our sunday, and her hands
circle my lower back
in simple rings. i kiss her
on the shoulder
and think:
this is our wedding day.
she picks out
the perfect ear of corn
like she could have done
for the rest of our lives.
holding it up for me to see,
there is no rot to find.
no decay in us, only terrible,
murderous youth.
in her husking hands
i see our lives sprawled out
like mountain ranges, two separate
Everests, only begun
to be shucked.
i know from her gardening hands
this will be our only sunday.
she picks out
th
my love is chameleon
sometimes
when it must change shape
to survive. afraid
it may kill itself
in its sleep--so sharp,
so demanding. sometimes
it becomes softer, rounder
simply to survive itself.
sometimes it doesn't do
to be so murderous.
now i ask my love
to go to sleep instead. please
don't change your shape
to slip out from under
your grief. please,
curl up with your dagger
teeth, and breathe deep
until you don't feel
the winter anymore.
better dream
than dead. better still
than gone. i have never been
one for hibernation,
no, but i would give much
to keep you. to preserve
you, a sleeper
encased in ice,
and in doing so
save m
bodies(the only way to go) by somewhither, literature
Literature
bodies(the only way to go)
limbs like tree trunks,
silver birches powerful
rippling--i could be
that softly combing
breeze if you would
let me.
what would it be
to grip those reaching
roots, struck deep
into soil, earthiness,
sun-stuff. what would it
be, i am wondering
and when you catch me
looking i try to seem
sincere:
just for science. mere
curiosity, but look here
at the hot arching
fever, the way i rise up
like a stove top,
i want, i want,
i want.
i go to bed
hungry, and wake up
the same. heart full,
hands cruel and
quenchless and your thighs:
o god, mountain ranges. i want
to climb them. my hands cry,
give me canyons. give me
give. my body te
right now i am waiting
for my life to begin. i imagine
it will approach with the slow
clicking of stilettos down a dim
hallway,
clickety clack, hooves roaring
down cobblestone, chest heaving
with lust and lung. i imagine this
but truly i have no idea what life
sounds like. sometimes i hear it,
i think, in the pulling of the engine
down the highway, the relentless
Morse of a heartbeat,
and the ocean, punishing always
that wincing shore. sometimes
i participate in this fierceness
of living, giving and taking
with the rest. other times,
i listen and pretend
it is enough. it counts. and i sit
with my legs crossed, closed,
while the
the summer, counting down.
each morning means less
meat, fewer kisses open
mouthed, and a choked leaving
looming ugly and wolfish
like a death.
i am trying so hard
to love you in the present.
i know you are not a bomb
or a landmine, i know
you are not going to kill me
on purpose. still,
the soft humidity
of your breathing: murder. the freckles
bouncing in your shoulders:
ruin. i am run through
with the soft suggestion
of your heart within your chest,
feathered and flickering.
a candle, a precious fire. the beat
of it is my own brutal beating;
you are my quiet bloodshed,
my gentle misery. i walk this home
you have built so slow in
dear sweet love, my Florida by somewhither, literature
Literature
dear sweet love, my Florida
slick, slick, slick.
the salted yolk of the sun,
the sea, singing
yes, yes, yes.
and i think to myself:
could i have arrived
at a better place than this?
the Vitamin C and D state,
place of slow freckling,
marshed breath like diving,
climbing, pulling back
every skin to find the nutrients
beneath. shoes and shirts,
no service. and the sun always,
always sweating, panting
to keep itself cool enough
to stick around. slick,
slick, slick
skin burning from the inside,
smelling like a sweetness,
shedding itself and forgetting
what it was called before this,
this, home of breezes
and punctual rains, home of
homecomings, though i am new
as
Please, said the straight girl by somewhither, literature
Literature
Please, said the straight girl
If you were a boy, she said
one day with her hands drawn
like shades and her eyes glinting
like a secret, If you
were a boy i would love nothing better
than to fuck you in public
with the lights on.
In front of daycare centers,
the dinosaur exhibit
at the city museum;
i would fuck you especially
in church,
in front of God and everyone.
If i were a boy,
she wanted me to know,
letting my own implications
strangle me with their one syllable
hands. perhaps
she could have loved me then
for what i was. instead
she loved me like a door,
a vessel to take her to capitalized
Pride, secret agent fingerings,
Where the hell did i leave
my und
god,
the simple morningness of it.
the first shaken breath
tumbling from the waking canopies
of your lungs. come to me,
open. come to me,
start. i need you now,
in this one sunrise, to give me
all the mornings we will never have.
each rising i have made
without you, i will forget them.
please,
breathe the morning
into me and simulate the rest
of our lives. the ones we will not live
together. i may wake up
to many faces through the years
and the years,
but not yours. please.
when you feel the world
coming in today,
we can be old together.
we can be newly wed, softly
drawn, with our lives a mountain range
before us. wake up with m
the cast of her eyes is a metaphor
for power. power,
a metaphor for sex. together,
we are two raging unsubtleties:
mouths spread, breath all flood
and leap. she is radiation,
is wanting, is eruption.
she comes to me easy and fluid
like a dream and drags
across every edge of the world.
say, slick. say,
give. roar.
she says she has forgotten
the definition of the sharp
tyrannical word, stop.
perhaps she knew it once
and perhaps not. she says this
while her mouth is left open
to let the rush in and her hands,
her hands. heated and
voracious. desirous of everything,
she sips from the sun
with cupped palms, then paints me
with th
summoning my soulmate through my epiphysis cerebri by ChloroformBoy, literature
Literature
summoning my soulmate through my epiphysis cerebri
I donate to you,
mon amour qui n’existe pas,
mon idée fixe,
kismet’s celestial amulets,
charged with karmic energy,
birthed by a wistful artisan’s wish.
My Cupid, your Psyche, and the demons of your imaginary unity haunt me.
Hexed metaphors stain the universe with the astronomer’s poison.
I am hanging onto a wisp, a flickering wisp of a lucid nightmare
{an insomniac’s nightmare: the nightmare of arousal}
Be my ethereal renegade. Tango with my aura.
~
A Devoted Fabricator’s To-Do List:
-toss enchanted pennies in inkwells at 11:12
-take sips from the bard’s potion
-manipulate love’s
the sun will stop shining soon by forestmeetwildfire, literature
Literature
the sun will stop shining soon
I wait for your knees,
your eyelids, the valleys
between your knuckles,
calloused fingertips-
you are a crazy sort of
beauty, a strange little
smile hiding between
your lips (kiss me
to sleep before the
night is gone)
the devil's gymnastics by MindlessThinker, literature
Literature
the devil's gymnastics
they’d called it the devil’s gymnastics
the way you’d played on lines,
cut legs with your prize-in-the-box cunt glinting;
cut smiles thick with saliva. you were everyone’s
perfect little pink-girl. the body on the block,
all sex no soul. all hurt no heart.
but you were too busy to notice, popping foam capsules
with your just-add-water spirituality. “na-mu-myou-hou-ren-ge-kyou”
sounded cooler in the movies, or when your grandma
had heaved at it on hilltops, frantic lungs,
meaning it more than you ever would. and in the same spirit,
when you fell asleep and your skin became placenta, it was she
who lathe
i am killing my body
i am desperately cooked
kettle-caller, pot-black
with my bones all leggy
'n wired out with hair
with bugs in my chest
bursting into song
still i love where i bruise
it cuts through the chitin
so i can work at the meat
that gets under my skin
and makes the bugs sleep
yes i am killing my matter
i am mattering more
and my jokes are funny again
because i make my fear the punchline
but when hunger breaks like a day
everyone dives back in facefulls
while i’m stuck in this limp wrap
imprinting my kinesthesis
in the wake of their volley
i’m still laughing though
repenting, replanting
i know how to win this game
w
no one is under any obligation to read this. i just need to like talk for awhile.
so i am leaving for college in about a month. leaving the only place i have ever known, with its rising mountains shrugging their shoulders, and the sky all stretched and almost always blue and powdered to perfection. i am leaving to a place with a similar sky but with vastly different faces, a bay that could swallow me or set me free (or both, i suppose), and alligators. what the fuck. alligators? (if you guessed Florida, you would be correct.)
i am leaving my friends who have made me. my parents who have made me. my mountains who have made me. i am leaving